tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4326616785511879092.post7299514824472858487..comments2023-11-03T18:03:18.409+08:00Comments on Entropy and Light: Tube-aversary 2: Reflections on a wound that I shall not heal.Aadhaarhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13487059113264287774noreply@blogger.comBlogger1125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4326616785511879092.post-42208445086563850502011-08-24T22:27:51.805+08:002011-08-24T22:27:51.805+08:00I find it interesting 1st that you blogged about l...I find it interesting 1st that you blogged about letting go on a day it has been heavy on my mind and 2nd that someone so versed and seemingly well adjusted to his situation would struggle with this. Having had numerous therapists over the years and even shrink friends, I have always struggled with the concept of letting go. Where does it go? I have a better than average memory which often plagues me and because I love unconditionally and have since before becoming an adult, I tend to continue to love even after being hurt. So nothing goes anywhere. I try to forget, to bury, to rationalize and as you said, lie to myself but the truth is that there are triggers and unresolved hurt comes back like acid reflux and usually at a bad time. I still don't know where it's supposed to "go" but I like the way you talk about the feelings associated. I know I am responsible for internalizing and in effect making myself sick but I learned to forgive which helped and I sometimes make a conscious effort to remember and try to assess how events affect me now, I try to write and that helps. I have often wondered how the people who let it all go the fastest deal with looking like a doormat too so I'm not sure we are truly supposed to let it all go but maybe find different ways to cope with hurt and loss. Thanks for another great thought provoking blog. Hope your having as good a day as possible, hugs! <3Websketch (Web Sass)https://www.blogger.com/profile/15170866335540519635noreply@blogger.com